Letting the SouL Lead
A morning practice & guided meditation
For the last three months, I have a practice of asking my SouL every morning what she wants to write about. It is a practice in noticing. Noticing what whispers and signs she is trying to communicate. It’s a practice to discover who’s voice am I hearing? Is my anxiety leading? My mind? My soul?
Noticing the subtle signs and cues is helping me re-program my internal operating system. Rebooting my software. Instead of communicating from a place of fear and anxiety. Guarding myself from harm. I’m trying to build an operating system of trust. One where I can receive and be at ease. One where I can rest back and feel the Universe is holding and guiding me. My SouL is in the driver’s seat and I am intentionally putting my judgy mind and anxiety in the trunk.
I can tell when my soul leads because of how honest I am. She has a slow steady pace. She yearns to have the mic and speak her truth, but her voice is so soft and her demeanor so delicate she gets squashed by the louder parts of me.
My mind chimes in when my ego is looking for attention. External validation. “Will people like this? Will people like me? When I get trapped in my head, I lose sight of my own voice and wisdom because I am seeking signs from the world to tell me what to do.
My anxiety leads when a deadline is looming (even a self-inflicted deadline). The pressure isn’t inspiring. Instead, it shuts me down. Space feels tight. I can’t think or breathe clearly. Time ticks loudly. I can get short and reactive. I care about getting the work done and being consistent. But I end up responding from a place that feels out of alignment and yucky.
My actions tend to dance between the various inner networks. I try to be more conscious about noticing who’s leading so that I can live life from the wisdom of my SouL. She’s the one who holds my personal Truth.
Most mornings, I wake up between 5:30 and 6 am. I light my SouL inspired candle in my bedroom. The scent of earthy jasmine fills the room and awakens my sleepy senses. I place the candle on the floor in front of my meditation pillow. The orange-yellow flame glows bright from the white jar creating a soothing light to guide and anchor me in the darkness. I sit on my cushion wrapped in a chunky knitted blanket. My body arrives and settles.
“Good morning SouL,” I gentle whisper to myself. My attention turns inwards. I rest my awareness on the space between my belly button and rib cage. Three inches back towards my spine. I wait patiently until I feel a slight inner sparkle. That’s when I know she is ready to communicate. Sparse words or images transcends up my spine to the base of my skull and then into my inner ear. I linger in her whispers. They feel like an internal hug.
When my practice feels complete, usually 20-30 minutes later, I gently carry my SouL candle to my computer—maintaining this inner and outer connection to her wisdom. I resist the urge to get distracted by my phone. Keeping the lights off in the house, the SouL candle leads the way. Sitting in the glow of the candle light and computer screen, I write. “What is yearning to be expressed, SouL? What feels meaningful to share?”
My eyes close and my fingers type—translating my SouL’s whispers into words. Flow feels alive. Tingles of sparkly energy pulsate with every sentence. The mind butts in to judge, almost jumping into the front seat of the car: “Is this even good or make sense?”, my mind sassily chirps. I pause to notice who’s talking. “Ahh, hello judgy mind. I don’t need your commentary right now. Thank you very much,” I clearly state. I rest back into my chair and close my eyes again to connect to my SouL.
Growing this connection between me and my SouL feels like I am welcomed home. Embraced by the most loving family member. Safe. A comforting space where trust, ease and receiving rest. A space where I can feel and hold my own worthiness.
What wisdom is your soul whisper to you? What are you noticing about your relationship to your soul?
Listen to this 20-minute guided meditation to deepen your connection to your soul. If you are inspired, share with me what you notice in the comments.